30 weeks,

30 Weeks! 30 Weeks! 30 Weeks!

Today I learned . . .

Today I learned . . .

. . . that anger does not make things better or for that matter make things go away.
. . . that darkness can only consume you if you let it.
. . . that it is okay to feel angry but what I do with the anger shapes how each day unfolds
. . . that consuming 3600 ml of water makes you pee a lot!
. . . that it is possible to lie on a couch for six weeks

Stable Mable

Once again we received good news. I continue to be stable and in what seems to be a holding pattern. The doctor was very excited that Wednesday I will be 30 weeks and that I have been stable for so long. I have been holding strong now for six weeks. Amazing. I even get to call the hospital and make and appointment to come and tour the labor and delivery floor just like a normal pregnant woman. I was given permission to be off of bed rest to make that tour and I cannot even begin to describe the reality of being a normal pregnant woman for a day. However, it would still be great to make it to 36 weeks so I won't get too excited and start running circles around the house. Although I will not lie, these thoughts have entered my head. I will go again on Friday for the fetal fibronectin test and hope again for a negative result. I have had so many visitors in the past six weeks and you have no idea what a gift that is for me. The days goes so much faster when I have some friendly faces to talk to. So for all of the meals, lunches, phone calls, on-line gift cards, movies, knitting lessons, magazines, and so much more, I thank you. I look forward to the day I can give back to someone else.

No appointment today

For those faithful readers this update is for you. My usual Friday appointment was changed to Monday because of the holiday. So needless to say next week I will have two doctor appointments, one Monday and one on Friday. Just didn't want some of you to worry. :)

Back by popular demand

Many of you have been asking for an updated picture of my ceiling. So here it is. As you can see we changed the hanging cards to the wall and have used the beam for snowflakes.
A wonderful friend from Iowa and her children made these for me. Iowa has lots of of snow, unlike us.
So they sent me some snow and now my boring ceiling beam looks much better. Thanks Annika, Braden, Tyson and Gabrielle!

True Statement

I have two true statements today . . .

1. Fetal Fibronectin test was negative! So no delivering in the next two weeks. Incredible!

2. Guitar Hero can be played lying down on your couch.

Stable Again

Today's appointment showed us to once again be stable. There were subtle changes but nothing to be concerned about and they sent me home. They did the fetal fibronectin test (this test tells if I will deliver in the next two weeks or not) again today but we will not find out the results until tomorrow. Today the doctor was very happy that we had reached 28 weeks as now is a much better time to deliver if things progressed that way. We got to look at the baby again today and received a very cute 3D picture. The pictures are finally starting to look a little more like a baby and a little less like a scary monkey. I will make sure and post the results tomorrow. Sleep well all.

My 5 Truths

So the days of bed rest are not always the brightest or the cheeriest days. With this knowledge a great friend of mine told me I have to think of 5 positive things for each day and I have decided to call these my 5 truths. So here are my 5 truths for the day:

1. I am pregnant one more day.
2. My best friend is my husband.
3. Warm Mr.J's bagels with cream cheese are the best.
4. A sleeping dog that snores and softly barks at dreams makes me smile.
5. I AM LOVED.

28 weeks!

Today is a big day as this baby is now 28 weeks old. The next goal is to make it 32 weeks. Today I came to the realize the following:

I realized today that I can rest and be calm.

As long as I am in a stable state, I need not worry.
As long as I am not having contractions, I can relax.
As long as I am not feeling pain, I can remain still.
As long as I focus on the liklihood of making it further, I can find hope.

As long as I have faith, I can find peace.

However, I continue to have these darn Braxton-Hicks contractions that make me nervous. My doctor assures me the only time I need to be alarmed is if I have more than 6 in an hour for two hours. So far I have not had anywhere close to this, it just makes me nervous and continues to challenge my above statement! The constant ebb and flow of bed rest emotions. Again thanks for the many thoughts and prayers. They are needed.

Rumblings from Dr. Suess

Today a great friend of mine came to give me my second lesson in knitting. Thanks MJ, you have saved me from hours of boredom! She asked me a profound question today. She asked if there are times that I just break down and have a good cry over this lying around business. The answer is YES. So I found this quote from the great Dr. Seuss and thought it very fitting for these moments of stir-craziness.

Sighed Mayzie, a lazy bird hatching an egg:
"I'm tired and I'm bored
And I've kinks in my leg
From sitting, just sitting here day after day.
It's work! How I hate it!
I'd much rather play!
I'd take a vacation, fly off for a rest
If I could find someone to stay on my nest!
If I could find someone, I'd fly away--free. . . ."
Horton Hatches the Egg by Dr. Seuss